I am scared of losing my common sense from one moment to another and just do it. When I am in the middle of a “panic attack” I want to do something to stop the suffering of not being able to breathe and to can’t control the physical pain that I live with every day which increase a lot. I feel like I am missing life living with a incurable painful illness that now doesn’t only have physical symptoms. I feel trapped in my own body, is a prison to me. I feel alone. My husband can’t understand and he hates to talk about my feelings because I cry. I feel like I am a burden for him.
I lost the capability of doing what I enjoy in life, I can’t work, I can’t have a dog, I can’t train, I can’t even paint or write, I just cause trouble and economic problems
I can’t die because it can cause more economic problems for everybody but I am tired to live.
- Thanks for reading.
