Don’t know what to do anymore…

I have never written on one of these forums before but here goes.

I just don’t know what to do anymore, how to live anymore. I have had problems with anxiety and depression for a long time, although never really diagnosed with anything. I when to a therapist for a long time but then I realized I lied to her and stopped going.

I am feeling so confused.

I have a boyfriend and we have been together for almost nine years. We also have a son together. Our relationship is up and down. I don’t feel he understands my anxiety and depression but I can understand why because he has never had the same problems. I do love him to bits and I don’t know if I could be without him. But now I think I have feelin, or a “crush” for a one of my friends and colleagues at work. But I’m not sure what these feelings are. And I’m sure he doesn’t feel the same way.  This is making me feelings so confused and more even more anxious.

I don’t know what to do…

 

Get a new therapist and tell them what happened with the last one, that you’d lie. If you’re open about that, you can tell your story and if it would happen that you’d lie again then you can be more open about it and maybe even talk about why you feel the need to lie.

Try to sit down with yourself and think about what you’re feeling, why you’re feeling that way and what you could do to change it. When you get more clarity, sit down with your boyfriend. Explain what you’re feeling as clear as possible so he can get the chance to understand you.

Don’t flirt with anyone else, probably you’re just searching for something that gives you feelings you don’t have right now. Try to find those feelings within your relationship, and if you both have tried and it don’t work out – break up with each other first so your action don’t hurt anyone else.